.....and Happy Hallowe'en to you all!!!!!!


“We don't want to be labeled, because being gay or black or a rapper or a redneck or alternative has only separated us, and those are labels previous generations have come up with, not us. We need to embrace our differences, not focus on them.” anon

“Every gay and lesbian person who has been lucky enough to survive the turmoil of growing up is a survivor. Survivors always have an obligation to those who will face the same challenges.” - Bob Paris

“It's better to be black than gay because when you're black you don't have to tell your mother.” Charles Pierce



[NOTE: This is a continuation from the previous blog.]

[NOTE: In the comments section between Matty and myself two blogs ago, she wondered how I knew I was gay if I was still a virgin. In view of her bringing up that isue, today's notes from "Manic Country" will focus some of my manic thoughts in that area.

In the fall of 2004, I was in Toronto visiting my nephew and his wife. Almost out of the blue, I had this urgency that I had to get home right away, and actually did catch a flight one day early. The next day, I realized what was happening, and admitted myself to the hospital for my seond stay. These notes were written during that stay.]



"An experiment on context. I'm going to ask you a question at the end of this blog [Note: this was part of my notes....me talking then, not now!]

brief comments on the gay thing.

So, that said, my curiosity quotient has me wondering if, for those of you who have read some of my earlier postings, did you filter in a change in how you read my blog with the label 'gay' that is part of the writer.

After all, maybe I'm not gay. Maybe, according to some, I just chose to be gay. Maybe I just made all that up about myself to prove my point.

Manipulation? Dishonesty? or an opportuniy for an "aha'insight" into realizing the significance of context in attempting to understand an alternative viewpoint.

(As I inscribe these notes from the loose papers to the binder, esp. these notes from a year ago, it amazes me how seminal ideas then (which I don't recall writing) have become fundamental constructs of my new theory)



(NOTE: The following original page had HEAVY over-writes, inserts, etc. Hope I got it "right")

I was brought up in a black and white, good and bad world. A binary world. Please understand, I'm not talking "parents" here, but rather society. Attitude. Just kinda the way things are. Some things you just accepted as truth.

Things like "Homosexuality is a crime."
"It's okay to laugh and point at fat kids or cripples."
"Our biggest mistake was giving women the right to vote."
"Kids should be seen and not heard."
"You don't exert yourself on Sundays. It's a day of rest."
"My wife has taught me to stand up stright and not scowl."

I found out later that some of this was supposed to be a part of a thing called my "faith". And apparently, a big part of faith was: "you don't question it or challenge it." I guess maybe it wouldn't be able to stand up very well to the rigors of examination. But then again. Faith will move mountains. I really believed that.

The George Bush way of seeing the world. Simplisticaly, a struggle between good and evil.

And dammit, I'm on the side of good. Just because that's the way it is. Honest.



A society that was able to come up with gems like "Homosexuality is a crime."
"Pot-smoking should be a crime against humanity."

It's fun watching the gay perspective/religious perspective thing sometimes.

"Being gay is a sin."

"Yeah! Well why did God make me this way then?"

"He didn't. You made an evil choice, but you can repent. Swear away your evil ways. God will forgive you. God loves you."

"But doesn't that make him a fag too, then?"

PEACE

Posted by Evydense on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 at 11:57 a.m. | Permalink