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Thoughts Of Manic Mind --- Part 7

[NOTE: Part of the reason that this entry has been delayed is because I have four specific, fairly serious, topics that I think I want to blog about sometime. I was debating whether or not I would, and whether or not I would interrupt my present "serial" on the Manic Mind in order to chat about them with you. I've decided that I'm going to keep on the "beaten track" for awhile longer, anyway].

"I don't know what other singers feel when they articulate lyrics, but being an 18-karat manic-depressive and having lived a life of violent emotional contradictions, I have an over acute capacity for sadness as well as elation." - Frank Sinatra

"Typically, they present a more complicated picture of bipolar disorder, so that they have more commonly than not mixed episodes or co-occurring manic and depressive symptoms." - Melissa DelBello

After leaving Evanescence, I dealt with a lot of sh--, then being diagnosed as bipolar, and my heavy drug use and rehab ... this record went through all that with me, so making it was a complete catharsis, ... I'm focusing on me and getting the unhealthy things out of my life, which isn't always an easy thing to do, but that's been my main focus right now. I'm still on a journey, you know, but I'm a lot happier now. I can sleep easier.” - Ben Moody

Most of our clients are suicidal, psychotic, bipolar, schizophrenic or sex offenders. They make an income of less than $3,000 a year and have been kicked off welfare. They need medicine, but cannot afford it. Many have been abused or in prison and have been addicted to crack and alcohol.” - Connie Wilson




[NOTE: The fourth quote is a "bonus" quote today. It shook me to the core. That's how we treat our sick and our needy, folks. And I'm potentially one of them. All I can say is "Why?" and "I'm scared."]




[Carrying on with some of the random thoughts that went through my head, and ended up being written down.


Continuing from previous blog.]


"You can't control the wind, but you can set your sails."


"Some things you can't control, so you let them go and see where YOU end up."


"I forget the freedoms I withhold from myself, depending on where I am."


"Don't step on anyone's mind."


"Randomness is the key to organization."


"Am I bipolar?" I asked that question on my dictaphone tape BEFORE I was diagnosed. I didn't know what bipolar meant then. How do things like that happen?" [NOTE: In addition to writing all these notes, I dictated about 8 tapes worth of stuff, because I couldn't write fast enough to keep up with my thoughts!]


"This is so bizarre. At this moment, I am remembering my ENTIRE life so far, word for word."


"How do I do "real" in imitation of itself?"


"Out of chaos comes the order.

Put them in order.

That's an order.

Which kind?

Alphabetic, or "do it now?"


How do you RE-think something if it's already been thought? Is the re-think the same thought?


"All politicians have to do is pretend that they're someone else. If we could do that, man, we could change the world."


"Here I was, always throwing pebbles in the stream trying to make a difference. The ripples measured how long that difference would last. I have just recently discovered that, all this time, I should have been studying the stone that was in my hand."


"Be better than you used to be."


"In education, we shouldn't spend so much time arguing over what the pass mark should be, and spend our time discussing what the success mark should be."


"When God laughed, He knew He had it right."


"When does a child's point of view become an adult's point of view? When do adults understand that?"


"I want to invent a new concept called an 'intelligence molecule'. It would be a 'figment' attached onto individual problems/thoughts/situations. "


"White, black.

They are co-joined.

You can't have one

without the other.

You can't havejust

one side of a piece of paper.

I've had the rare privilege

of exploring

and living in both of my sides.

Sometimes separately,

often together.


I doubt many will understand this,

but I write down these thoughts

just in case there is someone.


Just in case."



"Have you ever wanted to be someone else? I'd like to try Porky Pig. I never wanted to be anyone else.

Why is is such a crime for someone to take the time and interest and enery to create their own belief system instead of buying one of the existing, mass-marketed ones? "


"Owning your burden is half the problem."


"Everybody's usually somewhere else."


"What if, tomorrow, everyone started with the premise that we simply IMAGINE our own existence? What implication would that have?"


"I am the centre of my personal universe and you, yours. I don't mean physical or solar universe --- but soular.

None are coincidental, but many overlap. "


"It's just as hard to be yourself no matter who you are."


"Existence can't exist without me being a part of it. Otherwise, my existence never happened."


"The PAST doesn't exist.

It is only remembered.

The FUTURE doesn't exist.

It is only anticipated.


NOW divides them but TIME changes NOW so constantly that NOW doesn't exist either.


What is existence?"









PEACE



I don't have any answers, but here is a question. Please tell me why I have to study biology in order to get a degree in visual communications?? I don't thing blood type has much to do with taking pictures does it? I am so getting a "B" in this class - A "B"!!! Im so sad....

Jesus tortures all sorts of people! Like... Muslims... and Christians who think they know what he meant...

You know!

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